Nothing's Right I'm Torn

I remember when depression was cool. It was a sort of rite of passage from kid to young adult. You had to find a reason to be pissed off too, because really back then there wasn't much to be upset about, or at least you were too young to know what to be upset about (and learned later just how justified you could have been if you acted against the right things). So you learned how to dramatize trivial shit. Like the epic battle between the emotions of yours and some chick you dug, or really anything that had to do with some chick you dug. Of course once you felt the depression the door was open to drink and do drugs and make yourself that much cooler. But then you start growing, and one day you realize that this whole depression deal is shit and no matter how uncool happiness used to be you start to want it. Instead of being a spectator of your own life and sulking over it you begin to take action. You go after that chick you dig with everything you have. You earn the things you want, because that's the only way they are truly yours. You make a difference somewhere somehow.

I wonder if that little teenage need for depression is something we all have to experience and somewhat keep with us through the years. Maybe depression is too harsh of a word. As you grow older it's more of a dissatisfaction than a depression. But is that being unsatisfied with your life ultimately a good even necessary thing? I think so. The thing is if you are completely satisfied with life then where does your motivation for progression come from? That's not to say you can't be happy. You can be happy that you aren't satisfied. You can be happy that you want progression, you can be happy you progressed, and I'm sure at a certain point in your life you can be happy that you are completely satisfied, but for the most part that time is probably reserved for retirement.

I think too many people like to fool themselves into satisfaction, because they think they are supposed to be satisfied, but you shouldn't be. As good as your life is at this moment (and I'm not acknowledging the exceptions because I think anybody who happens to read this is still decently young) you should want more and you should go for it.

You only have to worry if you're not doing anything about your dissatisfaction.