You Stole The Keys To This Ride

Relationship. I'm beginning to grow a distaste for the word 'relationship' and a preference for the word 'affair'. Just thinking about it I realize that the supposed relationships that I have been in were really just affairs. Which makes me wonder if most of the relationships people claim to have had were really exaggerated affairs. I'm also left curious on how many times I can use the word 'relationship' in the middle of a sentence and end that same sentence with 'affair'. It may be easier, or even somewhat of a cop-out, to fall back on the affair label. For instance, I have had an affair with someone who I wanted very badly to have a relationship with, yet when it ended I had not lost a relationship, I merely lost an affair. BUT it seems to me, in this nostalgic state I'm in, as much as it is a cop-out there is still so much truth to it all. I wanted a relationship with this person so badly it turned my whole world around, yet after it was all said and done and the emotions weren't clouding the very logic I fight to live my life by, I saw that I wasn't in it enough to not sabotage the whole entire mess. As deep as the feelings were they weren't enough to play the game properly. There was no relationship. There was only an affair.