I Want The Ocean Right Now

Well not very tired so I thought maybe I could write some more on Coachella. We were all up at around 9 Sunday morning. My mom made us some waffles and bacon. All four of us were going to Day 2 as I don't think there was a thing in the world that was going to keep Mark away from NIN and the Prodigy. We weren't in a hurry to leave. Nobody was really excited about any of the early bands. We got to the Polo Field at about Noon. We did a lot of walking around from stage to stage and even stopped at a pretty open area and threw the Frisbee around. It was fun when people walking by would get in on the action. After that we did some resting. We weren't exactly all that pumped up about the festival. We were all tired from either Day One or rock climbing from the day before. We eventually found some open resting space near the main stage where we stayed for a while. Then we moved to the Outdoor Stage where the Fiery Furnaces were playing. I started to notice the many public displays of affection that was going on around me. So many couple just holding on to each other and being very close. It got me to thinking, which brings us to Coachella Day Two point one.

I don't think I'd make a good boyfriend. Here's the thing. Not once did I see these affectionate couples and think that I wanted that. I have no desire for it. I saw it and all I did was observe. I don't want a relationship at this point in my life so much that I've become numb to the whole idea of it. This is scary because numbness is dangerous. I've been here before and it kind of just eats away at you until you have no life in you at all. I want to feel. I want to be human, but all of a sudden I've gotten away from it. I don't think I'd make a good boyfriend because well I analyze things up and down and that usually leads to emphasizing the bad, and then I run away like an asshole, and essentially, like every other guy, I'm just an asshole. But I know it and that's endearing, so at least I got that going for me.

Of course there is at least one exception to this.

After the Fiery Furnaces finished we got up to get closer to the stage for Tegan and Sarah's set. They were very good, another highlight of my weekend.......and I'm getting tired so more on this later.