Remember To Remember Me Standing Still In Your Past
A little insight into the author of this blog.
I like to divide my life up into years. It helps in the whole over-analyzation of things. That being said last year, 2004, was the best year of my life. It wasn't the most fun. It wasn't the happiest. In fact, it was the hardest year I had ever gone through. It was a year full of frustration and depression. *begin cheesy statement* My heart had been broken *end cheesy statement* Weeks had gone by where I couldn't eat a thing except maybe a half of a chicken sandwich a day. I got financially screwed by a P.O.S. car that I hated. My relationship with my parents went from bad to worse. And more. It was a year in which I realized that I wasn't as cool as I thought I was. So why was it the best year of my life? I grew up last year more than any other. 2004 was the year in which I found myself. It was the year where after much pain I was slapped in the face with the realization that I had become as cool as I thought I was. That's a good year.
I'm not big on regret. When asked, "If you could change anything about the past what would it be?" I answer "Nothing." I believe that where I am is where I'm supposed to be. Everything that has happened in my life, no matter how shitty, has brought me here. To change anything in my past would contradict that. That being said if asked, "Given how crappy the best year of your life was would you change anything about it?" I would answer "yes." I wouldn't change what happened to me, as much as it sucked and still sucks, but I would change how I reacted to things. I hurt people. Friends and family were worried about me, and I hate that. I turned into a dependent asshole when I've always been best independent. I scared away the one thing I thought made sense. So yes I would change something. Anyway, last year was difficult but it was the best. Here's to having better ones that are actually happy.
With that I'll end this with a quote nobody will quite get except maybe the person who said it, "The most important events in my life happen in May." We're a little over a month away. I'm interested.
I like to divide my life up into years. It helps in the whole over-analyzation of things. That being said last year, 2004, was the best year of my life. It wasn't the most fun. It wasn't the happiest. In fact, it was the hardest year I had ever gone through. It was a year full of frustration and depression. *begin cheesy statement* My heart had been broken *end cheesy statement* Weeks had gone by where I couldn't eat a thing except maybe a half of a chicken sandwich a day. I got financially screwed by a P.O.S. car that I hated. My relationship with my parents went from bad to worse. And more. It was a year in which I realized that I wasn't as cool as I thought I was. So why was it the best year of my life? I grew up last year more than any other. 2004 was the year in which I found myself. It was the year where after much pain I was slapped in the face with the realization that I had become as cool as I thought I was. That's a good year.
I'm not big on regret. When asked, "If you could change anything about the past what would it be?" I answer "Nothing." I believe that where I am is where I'm supposed to be. Everything that has happened in my life, no matter how shitty, has brought me here. To change anything in my past would contradict that. That being said if asked, "Given how crappy the best year of your life was would you change anything about it?" I would answer "yes." I wouldn't change what happened to me, as much as it sucked and still sucks, but I would change how I reacted to things. I hurt people. Friends and family were worried about me, and I hate that. I turned into a dependent asshole when I've always been best independent. I scared away the one thing I thought made sense. So yes I would change something. Anyway, last year was difficult but it was the best. Here's to having better ones that are actually happy.
With that I'll end this with a quote nobody will quite get except maybe the person who said it, "The most important events in my life happen in May." We're a little over a month away. I'm interested.
posted by Angelo at 3/21/2005 06:28:00 PM
4 Comments:
May's when the Scrubs DVD comes out.
Fantastic for me, but I don't thing the person I quoted gives a F*&k.
Oh wait...i've got it. Isn't May when the new Coldplay album comes out?
It could be the month when you reach smart ass comment number 5,000,000........I don't know.
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